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it keeps me awake at night
that i want to hold you
and keep your body close to mine
but everytime i try to think of you
the thought of them
always comes back
and it haunts me that i miss them
that i love them
the memory of their love for me
is still somewhere in my heart
and i wish i could find it
crumple it up and throw it away
it consumes my mind
that i want to love you
but i'm still chained to them
my entire body is shackled to theirs
and they just won't let go

this one is kind of sad i wrote it on marchc 7th it doesnt have a title but also about 2 people ( one of them is the one i wrote i pledge allegiance to the flag of hypocrisy for ) feelign silly!! anyways im gonna write about a few tjings

i feel so like wrong in the world like i have no place here. it is genuinely so scary walking around school where you have to constantly watch ur back so u dont get jumped just for being who u are. like i'm so tired of life shi is getting so bad i'm not letting it on even to my closest friends js how fucking horrendous i have felt since january. like my life is #fallingapart :P.